"it's my way of life.."

I’m sitting here after my 4mile (walk/run) and I’m just thinking about all the many blessings in my life. This year has started off so amazing!

My fitness challenge has taught me I can fight through any bit of doubt I might have and any pain I may gain. The awesome thing about it is that my relationship with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, has just grown so much more.

I love having friends that fill me up with positivity! As I finished my run today with my friend Jenn, we sat and talked for a bit about how our fitness is a visual of how our spiritual lives are.

No matter how much we want to just give up the fight (physical or spiritual) we must keep pushing forward knowing that we are in good hands. We weren’t promised an easy or perfect path but in the end it will all be worth it.

As much as I hate to run its something I feel that brings me closer to Christ. My feet are blistered and my body is sore but I know that this is going to help my body become stronger, healthier and fit just like my spirit.

So be inspired, feel the many blessings you’ve been given and keep fighting the good fight bc in the end your results will be worth it all.

I feel like I have so much catching up to do. So this weekend didn’t really go as planned. I had a few too many setbacks that probably caused me to gain all my weight back. Yikes!

I’m actually happy I had some setbacks this weekend because it helped me realize that feeling I had is one I never want to have again. I still feel so sick from the junk I allowed in my body. I know what you’re thinking..” Val you did so good and now you just messed it all up! And you ruined the reason for your cleanse…”
I don’t really feel like it was a severe setback though. It was more of a stepping stone. I guess sometimes its ok if we fall (we aren’t perfect)… It’s the getting back up part that we learn from.

So that was this weekend. I know I said I had my weigh in last week but that was optional and apparently the gym wasn’t doing it that day. Thursday I found out what all I lost and so it helps to know what I need to do to push myself harder (I know yo’ure thinking…don’t have anymore setbacks).

I have a new goal Im looking forward to. My boss and I have a contest (starting tomorrrow) to see who loses 10lbs by April 1st. Okay so time to get my butt in gear Biggest Loser style! Oh yeah!

I’m changing my trainer too. Sad to lose my orginial trainer but excited to see what this new one will have in store for me.

6 days away from my Spartan Race. Ahhh!! So nervous!! And so unprepared!

And last but not least crossfit… 2 more weeks of the classes with my Groupon pass. Then I will be signing up for 3 days a week. So excited about that!

It’s time for bed (something Im still struggling with). Until next blog…gnite. :)

Today marks the midpoint of my gym challenge. I was feeling good up until last night. I started the Daniel fast two weeks ago and ended it Friday at midnight. Of course I messed up this weekend by not making the best choices with my diet. I’ve decided to not really start the Paleo diet but use its guidelines. I know what I need to do with my diet and what foods to stay away from but this past weekend I totally went against it.
We had a family gathering last night and of course all the comfort foods I gravitated towards were all on the table. I did take smaller portions but I’m a little nervous about weighing in tonight. I know portion control is very important and I conquered that but a lot of the food was fried and pasta. Ekkk!
So I guess we will see what my midpoint weight is tonight.

So it’s been longer than I hoped it would be before I could get to writing again. I’m overwhelmed with so much and just exhausted so blogging hasn’t really been top priority.

Struggles in week 4 include my food diet, rest, planning for all my meals, workouts while balancing work, home and social life.

I’d love to sit here and write how easy things are going and how much I love eating better but I just can’t. It’s been super hard. I get tempted at home to eat food I should be staying away from. I’m doing good with resisting it but it makes me hate the fact that I let myself get like this.

Working out has been a struggle but so worth every drop of sweat I shed. I got a trainer who has definitely been my godsend! She understands me and helps me with everything. I definitely needed that extra push.

The more that time goes by the more I realize what my motives are for this challenge. I’m learning a lot about myself and life.

I know I’ve never really been truly happy with myself and as I notice little things changing on my body I can’t help but to smile because I know if I can finally start loving myself I can allow others to love me too.

One thing I need to remind myself is that Rome wasn’t built in a day. My body is going through changes and though I may not see them right away they are definitely on the way. So quit stressing and allowing the chaos and confusion to overcome my journey and just breathe and know it will all happen. I will have conquered something I should have had control over all along.